Loneliness, yamas and happiness

Hiie!
I changed the font, its bigger and better to read now. hihuuh
Today my day is totally summarized in being alone.
Yeah, cause the made didnt come, my mom went for a lunch at her friend's home, my brother and dad were not here too.
My mom's friends called me to go for lunch too, but i dont like this kind of meeting where they usually ask you about what you do in life, why i am here, why i am not doing that, why why and why. And they keep making unpleasant suggestions, comments and jokes and yet, having indian food. Nobody deserves that.
Anyway, so, i stayed at home. Then i got tired of being at home and went to have my lunch at Subway. Hihuh! But yet.. i was alone.
After that i went home, did nothing useful, and yet, i was alone.
Then i had yoga class. Quite normal, Shilpaji came today, she is a teacher that i dont like that much, she usually give us a good scolding; i mean, everytime. Also, she point her finger toward us and make questions, if we dont answer, or make mistakes, she will tell that we are not taking seriously the classes. Boring.
She will be pursuing me when the day of my exam be very close. That's why i am explaining all this yoga stuffs for you, i have to be prepared. hueuheeuh.
Usually, i give ride for Payal and Sudhi (indian girl and indian boy, and today, i wished not to give ride, i wanted more time alone, but they came. huhehehe); in the car, Payal asked me if she answered right about happiness. The question was: How does yoga define happiness?
She answered something like "having positive toughts towards life and following yamas* and niyamas* and Samkhya philosophy." *Yamas and niyamas will be explained later.
I just told her, that i cannot tell her if her answer was right or wrong.. everybody has a point of view, different opinions, ways to see life. Then she asked me what would i have answered. I told my point of view: "Happines is within us, we dont need to seek for it, we need to see it, it's a state of mind. Yoga help us to see/find it inside us."
I understand if you do not agree, as i said, i believe in each one's opinion.
(Of course i believe that we are not able to smile every time. Everybody has your time of 'not in a mood' heheh)
Okay, i ll talk about yamas and niyamas.
Starting with yamas.
Yamas brings us order in our activities, we have duties in life and we need this order. Yamas are restrictions, all those "dont do". They say how we must deal with external world. In hatha yoga, we have 5 yamas: Ahimsa, Satya, Asteya, Brahmacharya and Aparigraha.
About Ahimsa:
It means non-violence. Usually when people say about non violence, they think violence is only on wars, etc. But actually, we practice violence also towards ourselves and we dont even notice. Example: When you have bad inputs to your mind and/or body, its violence toward yourself. Getting angry is also violence towards yourself and others. We must live in peaceful state ALWAYS.
About Satya:
It means Truthfulness. Simple: say the truth.
About Asteya:
Also very simple, means dont steal.
Brahmacharya:
Sexual continence. Nothing more to say.
Aparigraha:
Non - possessiveness. Materialistic world makes us suffer. But yet, non possessiveness can be not related to materialism, for example: someone who are not able to let go others. (attachment)

This are the yamas which we practice to live better in a society. Yes, i follow that, at least i try, heheu, as a yogi, i must at least try.
I am tired of writing, i ll continue the niyamas next post..

Thought for the day:
" Some people believe in destiny and some make their own. Which one are you?"
--- Written in 2008 by Jasper T. --- Australia